teddy bear, trekking buddy, what's left.

It's been so long since I've typed into this space and so many things have happened over this period of time. I suddenly find myself struggling in a new environment with new systems. been busy with school and hall stuff.. trying to settle in, and to keep on track.. hmm, staying in hall has it's perks.. it's great to have my own room, own privacy.. be part of hall activities, and to have my friends living close to me. but, there's a dark side to everything ya.. home is still the best:) that's why I'm home now! haha. actually no, that's not the prime reason.. guess I should do some update on my present condition. only for ppl who still read this space! :)

well, ever since school started I've been making many visits to the hosp & clinic for various tests and consultations, to be diagnosed with Pulmonary(active) TB by my specialist. I'm really glad that it was detected early and so I've already started treatment on the 23rd of Aug :) the treatment (taking of drugs) lasts for 6 months.. and it's really important, as told by my doctor. As to how and when I got the illness, they have no clue.. but the doctor explained that many ppl have latent TB, and because of a weak immunity system, it can develop to active TB, as is my condition now.. and there are, but not known to me yet, various explanations to that.. I'll only know when the results of the blood tests are out.. As of now.. I'm kinda like suspended from school and hall for 2 weeks, coz it takes 2 weeks of treatment before I'm deemed 'fit for school'. basically after about 2 weeks of medication the infection won't spread I guess. the doc at nus says as long as there is a small risk of transmission, he is obliged to take precautions, and so he has to be harsh. the OSA was informed, then the hall master and faculty. my room key was even taken from me, the hall master escorted me to make sure I did not go to the comms hall, and I had to wear a mask.. it felt awkward, coz I received weird stares. The doctor at UHWC even told me that I would have been expelled if I was a foreigner and that made me so scared, but thankful at the same time.. It all came so sudden.. and I felt so lost and upset at that time. I'm better now.. though I still miss school and my friends a lot a lot! just gotta bear with it for 2 weeks! missing out on tutorials and stuff.. but I e-mailed the profs for advice.. they were super helpful, and prompt in their replies:) so I'm actually feeling better now.. really. the only thing I dread is to swallow pills, coz I can't.. esp capsules. gotta take 6 pills every morning half an hour before food. in other words, my 'nite'mare starts when I get up in the morning. and because the medicine comes with side effects that creates liver problems and increases the risk of hepatitis, my doc says I must aviod alcohol and traditional medicine. remind me if I forget okay! though I know I won't. I'm also too broke alr, spent more than 300 bux on medical fees le. I'm gonna be a better girl from now!(coz I'm good from the start? haha.) and gotta lead a healthy lifestyle:) by the way, I'm not gonna hate teddy bears because of this! and I'll be strong, on my own--that's sth I gotta start being used to. dont worry! jia you....